A day in the life of me.

03^rd May 2010

Monday // 1am // 2 years ago

paid in cash..

So, I’ve been out of work for a while and I am desperate for a job. Just couple weeks ago, my grandma had asked one of the stores near her job if he was looking to hire and that I would be willing to work. I get a call from him to come down talk about how he does things. I meet up with him in his store, and he seemed really professional and really nice. He tells me that he will be opening another shop, and that he would like me to work in that store when it opens, ONLY thing is…he’s gonna pay me in cash. WHOAH! (nice huh?!)

Now, don’t get me wrong the idea of not having a paycheck taxed every week and getting paid on the spot sounded really nice! But as a witness to my Savior, Jesus Christ, it put a little conviction in my heart. I felt very uneasy about taking the job, sure I was excited that I would be able to work again, but I know in the Bible it says that we need to pay our taxes. At the time I wasn’t sure on what I should do. I prayed about it, and asked Him to reveal to me an answer. Being that I want to be a good witness to God for others to see, I want to do things that are right by Him and not have my faith be a contradiction.

So the other day, while doing devotions, there was a verse that really hit my heart like a baseball player hitting a home run. This was my answer from the Lord: Jesus said, ” But so that we may not offend them, go to the lake and throw out your line. Take the first fish you catch; open its mouth and you will find a four-drachma coin. Take it and give it to them for my tax and yours.” Matthew 17:27.
WOW! Jesus paid taxes?? YES indeed He did! This scripture amazed me how God can speak to you, you just have to be willing to listen.

Anyways, after reading that I thought to myself, if Jesus Christ..our Lord and Savior paid His taxes, then what makes me think I am any better than Him not to? I thought about it more, and realized that most of the sinful things in life pay no taxes either! Like, the stripper, the drug dealer and whatever else you can think of. I say, is taking the job because I need the money desperately worth doing something displeasing to God? I think if you have to ask yourself that kind of question, then it is NOT worth it.

 I believe that this was a test of my faith to see how much I trust that God WILL provide for me and my family. I am stepping out of my comfort zone, and putting all my trust in His hands. Just remember, the devil/enemy is out there to get you to sin against God, to take you out of His light, away from His shield. He’s like a hungry lion, waiting for the weak animal to wander away from the herd. He knows how desperate I am for some source of income, and ALMOST had me do wrong to my Father.

You know what I say to that?

 ”HAHA devil, I have God on my side and His light shines in me! Nice try, but know that I will be on my guard knowing you will try to lure me in while I’m vulnerable.”

So, I won’t be working for that guy if cash is how he’s going to pay me..he may think he’s got the government fooled, but he’s not fooling the Man upstairs. :)

<3 Dezi

09^th Mar 2010

Tuesday // 3am // 2 years ago

Calling someone ugly is….

playerofcardz:

hypenjay:

like telling God he failed in creating us.

To me, “ugly” makes this world beautiful.

27^th Feb 2010

Saturday // 10pm // 2 years ago

Kind of a big deal

So today, Hawaii was on a tsunami watch. Although it’s over already, and everyone is safe…I still hear people complaining that this was a waste of their day and that the tsunami watch was all bogus. Okay, I’ll admit that I did get bored just watching the water go back and forth from Hilo Bay, but…just seeing that happen made even more thankful for my life and everything I am connected with.

I understand everyone is entitled to their own opinions, but GEEEEEZE people!! What did you want? Why are you so upset that we were told to be prepared and take these precautions? Perhaps we really got hit. We get to see everything happen on tv..people’s homes being destroyed, watching the dead body count get higher or maybe getting phone calls from family or friends that they can’t get in contact with someone close to you. Would you still be upset then? Would you think that people were over reacting? I didn’t think so. You probably would be thankful for being prepared, being in a safe place and that everyone you love is alive and healthy.

We could have ended up like all those other places that didn’t have any sirens to warn them. Last year, I lost my aunty and my 7 year old cousin in the tsunami that his Samoa. So be grateful that we are not victims of this ‘what could have been’ tsunami. AT LEAST, we’ll be able to live another day to tell this story. AT LEAST, we still have homes to go home to. And, AT LEAST…we’ll get to take advantage of telling our loved ones that we love them. Just think about that next time you’re taking your life for granted.

“He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”
                                                          Revelation 21:4 

27^th Feb 2010

Saturday // 8am // 2 years ago

Dear God

Father God,

First, I would like to thank you for blessing us with this day that we got to spend with our families, for we do not know if there will be a tomorrow when we wake up, thank you Father. I come to you right now just asking that you please watch over my family and friends,keep them safe. I pray for every-one’s safety, especially the homeless on the beaches with their kids. I ask that you give me the strength to accept my losses, no matter what it is, and remind me that what ever you do father, you do it for a reason. I pray that what ever the outcome of this situation is, that it makes people realize why they are here and I hope it also brings everyone closer, to make a stronger bond in our communities. Please watch over the children, that their parents/guardians protect them. No matter what happens Lord, I will always love you and will continue to be an obedient lamb. I ask this in Jesus name.

Amen.

26^th Feb 2010

Friday // 11pm // 2 years ago

26^th Feb 2010

Friday // 11pm // 2 years ago

What’s in a name?

Three names given to me at birth. Two by choices and one destined to me from the beginning.

Desiree, a name that was more like a song to my parents ears.
The name they called when I was in trouble
A name that people recognized with my face.
Meaning desirable, the desired.
I was something my mother had longed for, a baby girl.

Autasi, my middle name, proudly given to me by my mother.
Passed onto me after my great grandmother, to keep the family name going.
Meaning, “the one.”
I was the first born, the oldest daughter.
The one that would look after the siblings that followed.

And then, Lagon.
A name carried by my father from day one.
A name that has been meant for my to have before I was born.
The name that my pride and accomplishments followed.
One that I would one day have to give away with my father.
But, a name that will always be running through my blood.
One that I will carry forever, my family pride.

-Dez :)